A rush of blood through the veins
A bolt of lightning to make the heart beat again
Hot tears simmering against eyelids
Cold drops of sweat on feverish skin…
Oh, what I would give to feel again.
I gave heartache the longest break,
A thin layer of frost coated my skin
And I placed chains on all the bits of me within
That ever longed for love.
I clipped the wings of that captured dove
Soundproofed the glass to stifle her song
I doubted I’d miss it after so long,
But now I can’t even recall the sound.
Now, I don’t miss your mischief or your mistresses
I long for steady heart-beats and only tears that accompany a smile
Hope has yet to seem worth-while,
When I remember cold and lonesome December
When ice and snow trapped me with no place to go
Your arms twice as cold, the novelty of me so old
In your fickle heart.
I do dream to the sound of my favorite song,
Of breathing normally after so long –
Inhale, exhale and carry on
With no drugs or no alcohol, just faith in love.
A rush of blood all through my face
Electric pulses resuscitate
Heat of the sun when it’s finally May
Cold chills of excitement; heart, don’t hesitate.
Oh, what I would give to love again.
Beyond this Smile 